Loading Days Are Hard Work

Today's Weight: 146.4
Difference from yesterday: +2.0


Round 3 Loading Day #2 Day 2


Loading is hard work! Why is it when I CAN eat I don't really want to eat. I mean, don't get me wrong, it's all good at the beginning and then my stomach hurts. I think part of it is because foods with dairy make their way into my mouth. They just jump right in there. Like chocolate. Lots of chocolate. I'm hoping I'll eat so much chocolate I'll never want chocolate again! Fat chance. Or hopefully skinny chance.


There is a bit of a difference today. I didn't gain the 6 pounds I expected to gain on my loading day. I also noticed that I am feeling a lot less hungry today. The last rounds I did I felt hungry even on loading days. I did ok for the first few days in phase 2 then things went down hill from there.


I've tried to load with a lot of fats but a lot of sugar and starch has made it's way into my mouth too. I'm refusing to take responsibility for it though.


My husband has been asking me NOT to do another round. I understand these rounds are hard on my entire family and I don't take it for granted they have to suffer through secondary dieting vicariously through me. They have to listen to me complain and obsess about the number on the scale. They have to endure the uncomfortable moments during dinner when I catch myself longingly staring at their food. I'll be forever grateful for their unconditional love and support during my dieting ventures.