Huge Gain

Today's Weight: 147.2
TOM
Yesterday's Weight: 141.8 lbs
Daily Difference: +5.4 lbs

Yes ladies, I am impressive aren't I? I can gain 5.5 lbs in ONE night! I nearly fell off the scale this morning.
Summary of the week:

Sat 6/12: 142.2 Light TOM
Sun 6/13: 143.0 Light TOM, but did STEAK Day
Mon 6/14: No TOM, 141.0 lbs
Tues: 141.4
Wed: 143.0 TOM Back, STEAK DAY
Thur 6/17: TOM 141.8 lbs

So what did I do last night? I decided I needed a free night. I've noticed a lot of HCG will take one free day a week or month or whatever. I took one for myself last night. AFTER 6 MONTHS! I haven't had a potato for half a year. In R2P4 I haven't been able to eat more than 2 tortilla chips without gaining. I'm had at most 2 TBS of wild rice. I gain, have a steak day, try again, gain, steak day, so on. So I talked myself into it last night. I deserved it I told myself. I went to Pluckers with my husband and I:

-sipped off his beer (not gluten free but what the hell)
-had 1 Mexican Martini
-3 slices of fried pickles
-3 chicken wings (I could have put down 12 before diet).
-8 or 10 waffle fries

Then we went to Viva Chocolate and I had a hot chocolate and nibbled off some of his chocolate mousse.

These two items were tiny by the way since it was at a little chocolate fancy boutique. 

I've had such a difficult time with this round. It's seems like it's a total failure. I'm up almost 100% of the weight I had lost. Today I am up 11 pounds (est) from my last injection weight. I just wanted one evening where I could eat something I wanted to eat. I've been so hungry! I've taken diet pills to curve my appetite the entire time I've been doing HCG. I tried not to do it this second round but I was starving. I started taking my thyroid medications but they haven't really helped. Today I am doing a steak day but haven't been able to do it totally clean. I could feel my sugar dropping this morning so I had 2 poached eggs. A few hours later I was getting dizzy and light headed again so I stuck a knife into some organic peanut butter (only ingredient is peanuts) and licked it (twice).  So far it's been a few hours and one more diet pill. So far I'm ok. It's near 3pm. I'm about to take the kids roller skating for a few hours and have speed skate training for an hour tonight. Then I can come home and eat my steak. NOT at 6p though. It will be near 8pm. That's a killer for me. I can't keep Dr. S's recommended eating times. I just can't. 

It did cross my mind that I wasn't eating enough (of the foods allowed of course). I tried eating until satisfied for 48 hours and ended up with a big o'l gain and never lost the weight. I dropped down to taking diet pills and limited my amount of food and that usually does the trick. I start eating a bit more or forget to take the diet pills and I end up having a +2.0 gain and have to do a steak day. So I've tried eating, ain't gonna happen. 

Exercise still makes me gain. I think water retention is a big factor. If I was a walker I think it would be better. Roller derby and outdoor bootcamps aren't beacons of weight loss for me. The worst part is I hate working out. I hate exercising. I do it because I have to get in shape to apply for the jobs that I want. If I had my choice I would walk 20 minutes a day 3x a week and leave it at that. 

I'm really disappointed and hope to see some of the weight off tomorrow morning. I haven't sat on my bathroom floor and started crying yet. I'm sure that's coming though.