Fat Food Snob

Today's Weight: 143.2 lbs
Yesterday's Weight: 143.0 lbs
Difference: +.2lbs

LIW Difference: +6.4 lbs

Round 2 Phase 4

It's impossible to maintain my weight some times. Ok, most of the time. Today I am doing the eggs for breakfast though I did have some of my homemade yogurt with flax/chai/pecans. I took my super duper diet pill to ward off the hunger and I'm going to try to do a steak for dinner. No sugar for me today. I'm really bothered by those 3.2 lbs. I was really upset about the previous 4 lbs but these last 3 are killing me! I haven't really incorporated a lot of carbs/sugar yet. I still have attempted only to take TBS worth of things. I've eaten 3 bites of a banana. I ate some amaranth/quinoa/corn cereal one morning with Mootopia milk. I mean, come on?! My waist line is getting bigger too and so are my arms. Not muscle either. I keep telling myself it's ok. It's ok. I still don't weigh 172 which is what I weighed after I started roller derby. Exercise is always a killer for me. If I sat and did nothing on the couch all day I'd probably lose weight. But the reason I wanted to lose the weight was to be able to do all this physical fitness stuff, train for my upcoming jobs, and play roller derby without reaching 200 lbs! I broke down this morning and took my thyroid medication. I want to see if I can get my hair to stop falling out and my skin to get less dry. Oh and all the hairs on my chin are not cute! WTF?!

But I'm sure it's all in diet and portion control for me. I don't crave broccoli or green beans. I don't want to stuff my mouth with kale! Before I wanted to eat bread and chips. Rice or couscous. After HCG it's almond bread or almond butter, a hand full of pecans, or cheese. I crave that Mootopia milk too! Cereal. Even weird organic funky grain cereal. I have friends that stop by every now and then and they call me a "hippie" or a "food snob" and say my refrigerator smells funny without preserved food. I have kelp noodles in my fridge! What has become of me?!!??!! And I still gain weight. My family loses it. I gain it. Not fair. I bought my hubby tons of bread... white bread... told him to knock himself out. Bought him a huge block of butter too (organic butter of course) and told him to eat it!!! If I see him lose another pound and reach my weight being 6.0 ft tall I'm going to lose it. He's 6 ft, 10% fat, 148 lbs. Before I did HCG he was 13% muscle and 163 lbs. I'm 32 % fat.  My metabolic age is like 40 (it use to be 50). My husband's is 19. I have to DRAG him to work out with me at boot camp! Ug! Yes, I know it's genetics. But it's still not fair. I still can throw a tantrum! LOL

TOM hasn't shown up yet but I'm expecting him any moment. Hence the ranting and raving. Though no... not really... I would rant and rave regardless.

It's 10:30 pm and I'm finally coming to bed. Very exhausted. I just skated for 3.5 hours. We did a timed test on how many laps we can do in 5 minutes, I only got 24 laps. My goal was 28 laps. I came home and ate my steak and some cheese. We will see if I see the benefits tomorrow morning or if the water retention for the exercising is going to throw that off. If I'm not down tomorrow I'm going to do a full on steak day. Can't I do an apple day? Has that worked for some?