No More "Pint Guy"- back on HCG

Today's Weight: 137.6 lb
Body Fat: 31.0 %

Yesterday's Weight: 139.0

Daily Loss/Gain: -2.0 lbs

Phase 2- Very Low Calorie Diet Day 5 (VLCD #5)

I hadn't updated my blog in a while because I tend to obsess more about my weight and end up stressing myself out. It's difficult to have a healthy outlook on weight loss when you become so self critical and totally focus on the digits on the scale. I understand that. But it's still hard to to do.

I began another round after gaining about 10 pounds. I was just a bit tired of "dieting" and decided to take a break. It was fine until our roller derby season ended and I stopped exercising all together. It was no surprise and I was not disappointed. I can truly say I enjoyed it. :) That's no good but true. Our local ice cream shop knew my husband as "The Pint Guy" because he always came in an ordered a pint at a time for me. He usually would bring it home at 10pm at night too. I think he was trying to not so secretly sabotage my "skinniness". My family really wasn't use to seeing me so thin 130-137 is very new to me. In fact, I wasn't use to seeing myself as a small person and once I hit a size 4 I began wondering if skinniness was right for me at all. That's odd I know. I just couldn't psychologically accept the size and kept messing with the amount of calories I would eat a day and the weight that would register on the scale vs. the image in the mirror. My ideal goal is to go be at 25% body fat or a little less to decrease my chances of diabetes. I use to take thyroid medication, insulin regulating medications and birth control to control my polycystic ovarian syndrome. Oh and I have endometriosis too. But to reach that goal I have to be about 125-130 lb, size 4 ish and eeeeekkk (in my mind) tiny. But when I started increasing my weight and increasing my fat percentage I ended up feeling some of my old symptoms and my medical issues seem to be returning. So I decided to eat. Pint Guy was welcomed with open arms! (Yes, I did eat a pint almost every 3-4 days... it gets expensive). Oh and chicken wings are gluten, dairy and nut free so they were welcome too. So I'm back now. No more Pint Guy.