Oh Oh, hungry again

Today's Weight: 139.0
Yesterday's Weight: 139.6 lbs

Round 3 VLCD 18

I notice I'm hungry in the morning and in the evening again. I had a little bit of an increase but we had taken our kids to a water park and I might not have drank enough water. I also had a latte from starbucks, sugar free and with skim milk, but calories are still calories.

This round has been pretty much a flop. I have yet to reach my LIW from my last round or even be 2 pounds close to it. I have to say I'm frustrated. This morning I noticed I was really hungry and over did it on the cereal (which I was hoping to take out all together). I even considered not giving myself the shot this morning and just saying to hell with it. When I'm hungry there is little that will stop me from eating. I go into survival mode and I could give a sh*t if I want to lose weight or not. I did see a glimpse of how HCG is suppose to work though. Dang! What a huge difference those days that I was not hungry. I mean it was incredible. I didn't fret or pace around the house to make time go by until the next time I was able to eat. It was so horrible. I was so grouchy and then if I couldn't hold out I would feel so guilty for not staying within the 500 calories. Ug! It's been really tough. I'm sure I'm not going to move from 139 right now. If anything I'm going to end up gaining with my hunger coming back. I'm not going to increase the dose of HCG past the recommended dose of 200 u (I think that's right). I'm at 180 u right now and planning on increasing to 190 u tomorrow. I've never really NOT been hungry on my previous rounds except for a few days here and there. That's why I've had to have diet pills in EVERY round and in EVERY phase. Geez.

I ate so much cereal this morning that I'm feeling bad about it and ate an apple for lunch. I'm sure spacing meals or skipping one because I pigged out on cereal isn't ideal either. But again, if the HCG was working I shouldn't have been so hungry I wanted to eat my pillow this morning and I would be able to withstand skipping a meal. I haven't had derby these couple of days either. Next practice is on Sunday. I'm even thinking of doing an apple day since I don't move from 139 but also because it would give me something to eat all through out the day and I might be able to hold out a bit better. I'm not going beyond the 23 days. What's the point?

I hate to admit it but I've been limiting the blogs that I read. I'm so frustrated with myself. On a good note though, I haven't turned yellow.