140's

Today's Weight: 140.0lb
Yesterdays' Weight: 137.8 lbs

LIW: 135.6 lb

I haven't been following protocol for the last 4 days or so. I'm tired of it. Really. Just tired. It's difficult because I can't eat nuts, dairy is harsh on my stomach, and I stay gluten free. SO, that means that I can't eat much of anything without having a lot of water retention. Some things that I think are gluten free end up having some sort of gluten in it and I swell up. I also finally figured out that the lactose pills I was taking to counter my lactose intolerance made me really sick to my stomach. I don't want to be one of those people that is intolerant to EVERYTHING! I think the combination of keeping gluten free, nut free, and dairy free is a little too much for me. So these last few days I just ate. Whatever I wanted (except for gluten products or nuts). I ate tortillas! OMG. I ate my own native food yesterday. Salvadoran tortillas, fried plantains, black beans, rice, baked yucca root. I hadn't had Salvadoran food in 9 months! I missed it. I was getting pretty depressed. I felt like a part of me was missing. Weird how the bond between culture and food is so strong. It's part of MY identity. My husband was so pleased to see me eat. I caught him staring at me out of the corner of my eye at dinner last night. He kept putting more food on my plate from his plate. I told him to stop it and he apologized and he said he was just so happy to see me eating AND to see me enjoy it too. I actually ate until I was no longer hungry. Wow. I wasn't light headed. I wasn't dizzy. I didn't feel foggy. I felt complete. I started retaining water though within 1/2 hour. My toes and ankles started swelling. I was fine with it though.

I've been feeling mentally more alert lately even though my stomach was a bit upset during the dairy/lactose episodes. I can even stand up straight and not get dizzy. I was getting really dizzy and tripping to the side when I was standing up straight on P2 and P3 correction days. I think my body will eventually be able to cope better with my blood sugar over time. Today I'm doing a semi correction day with cheese and apples though the cheese can be an issue. I skate for 2 hours tonight so I'm sure I'll eat more than cheese and apples but I'm just watching my intake and drinking a lot of water. I did a full blown steak day a couple of days ago and actually gained 2 pounds. I'm sure I didn't do something right or maybe had some water retention issues left over from the previous day. Who knows. I didn't do a correction day the next day after steak and I lost 2.5 pounds even though I ate some chocolates and quinoa/corn chips! The stress if getting to me again and my family is beginning to feel it. So I'm glad I ate at dinner and I'm glad my husband was pleased to see I will eat again. He thinks I'm way too skinny now and I don't want to become one of those totally obsessed and self absorbed dieters. That's tough. I know I'm like that right now. I need to give myself and my family a break and find a better balance between dieting and eating. So I'm going to take a rest from Dr. S but stick to a gluten free diet. I'm going to try to concentrate on vegetables also. I'll keep my blog updated though. I'm going to be skating and exercising a little bit more and hopefully that will counter any damage done with my lack of diet. I know I'll have more energy to exercise that's for sure. Everyone else hang in there too. This is tough and we're all doing a great job.